God is FAITHFUL!!!

Well, sorry for the hiatus! I know I've been gone for a while, and I'm sorry for that. We have had A LOT happen the last few months/weeks. God has been really good to us through the trials though. One thing that I have learned through it all is to FULLY relly on HIM in EVERY aspect of life. And also that HIS timing is PERFECT and WHATEVER happens in life, if we are following HIM...is HIS will and HE only does it to make us stronger.

As many of you know about the loss we suffered back in Feb., we suffered another loss on two weeks ago or so. It all started when I learned I was pregnant again. It was Aug. 24. I was SOO excited and wanted to do EVERYTHING right. I had gone to the dr. that following Monday. I had already had two bloodtests and all seemed okay with the levels...so they were not concerned, but still wanted to watch me closely. It was on Sunday, September 13 that I started bleeding again. So, we got in the car and headed to the ER. The did SERVERAL tests and lots of bloodwork, as well as two u/s (the regular one and an internal one-to check for an ectopic pregnancy). According to the day of my last cycle, Sunday was the start of my 8th week (or rather supposed to be), but when they did the u/s they measured me at only 5weeks and 4days). We were concerned, but clinging(praying that) to the numbers/math being wrong until otherwise.

After 4 1/2 hours in the ER they diagnosed me as having a "threaten miscarraige". When the dr. came in to talk to us, he did say that bleeding/spotting was normal during pregnancy, and that he could see on the u/s where the bleeding is coming from, so that I was just to be on restricted activity and take it easy, and be out of work until further notice. Since I had no bleeding or spotting with Asher and the only time that I had any was the last time I had a miscarraige, I was a little nervous, but still having faith that God was in control.

Then after the u/s and bloodwork I had done in the ER, I had another blood test done on Tues. the 15 and then another u/s done on Thurs. the 17. , then on Fri. the 18 I recieved a call from the ob that I am going to now that they wanted to see me that day. So, I went in at 11:00am that morning, to find out that the pregnancy had not been a good one, but that I hadn't passed it yet, and my hormone levels were still high because my body was trying to hold on to this one.
So they scheduled me for a D&C on Monday, the 21. I went into same day surgery dept. at about 2:45 and went into surgery about 5:00, and got out about 5:30. Then we returned home about 6:00-6:15. I since then have been out of work, and on tylenol with Codeine (powerful stuff let me tell you--but hey, I'm not in pain). I am going back to work tomorrow for the first time since Sept. 11.
I am still feeling very emotionally drained and also still in pain a lot.
Please pray for me that the transition back to work will be a good one, and pray for our family during this hard emotional time.

I will be glad to talk to anyone about it or just be there to listen to you. Just send me a message and I will give you my email address.


One of the other things I have realized is that in God's timing we WILL get our baby, ,and for now Asher is the only one that we are to have. I am FULLY enjoying Asher and starting to realize that if he is going to be our only one than that is God's Will for us.